20.Oct.2008 To die hating them, that was freedom.
“Do you begin to see, then, what kind of world we are creating? It is the exact opposite of the stupid hedonistic Utopias that the old reformers imagined. A world of fear and treachery and torment, a world of trampling and being trampled upon, a world which will grow not less but more merciless as it refines itself. Progress in our world will be progress toward more pain.”
- 1984
22.Sep.2008 Snooze button enthusiasm.
This is just a nightmare
Soon I’m going to wake up
Someone’s gonna bring me ’roundRunning from the bombers
Hiding in the forest
Running through the fieldsLaying flat on the ground
Just like everybody
Stepping over headsRunning from the underground
This is your warning
4 minute warningI don’t wanna hear it
I don’t wanna know
I just wanna run and hideThis is just a nightmare
But soon I’m gonna wake up
Someone’s gonna bring me ’roundThis is a warning
4 minute warning
////lyrics to “4 minute warning” by radiohead
15.Sep.2008 And now its time for a nightmare.
SALEM – DIRT from ACEPHALE on Vimeo.
*warning: kinda disturbing. also nudity thus NSFW
25.Aug.2008 the syntax of fear
my creations, at their best, are assigned a meaning after the fact. that is, my most expressive work comes about accidentally and without intent; it conveys depth and significance in a subtle and effortless way.
to say that i cannot write concisely, that i do not communicate effectively, may be true. i’m too eagar to use every crayon in the box. my writing could use some sophistication. inching towards eloquence. there is just so much of life that i love
see me in the errors. see the urgency with which words come of me. if i could speak in haiku’s, i would. my thoughts anyway, a constant stream of poetry which i am the sole privileged audience to.
so i remind myself: the truth, in any case, needs no defense.
12.Aug.2008 It’s an odd dance of self-identity
so i was like inthemiddle of writing this lengthy blog post about nonduality and selfawareness, a tome that had been the culmination of weeks of experimental this-that and i was thisclose to breaking through with an “aha!” when i get an email from Michelle. she fwd’d me the cover story of the latest adbusters, aptly titled: Hipster: The Dead End of Western Civilization. i thumb through and read the article on my blackberry and realize that quite a bit of mixed strong reactions are emerging.
10.May.2008 seizures for the wicked
a couple shots of a visual compilation titled “seizures for the wicked.” program in the background is aftereffects.
09.May.2008 zombies are so hot right now
i was aimlessly driving around laveen one fair sunday when i suddenly found myself at a red light watching this lady cross the street
it was like she walked off the pages of vogue
